Silent Tears

Well, this is a poem from Jane Lim....

Her poem only partly explain how I feel now.

It explains till the phrase "Is as sour as a lime".

Congratulations to all the COs who get in SYF competition....

Especially to Tyy pey and Sok Ling as they must have worried who will be out....

In the end both of them in..=)

But I nvr get in which I sure feel sad as I cried....

No more chance ler....

But not onli me nvr get in.......

So I should also not be sad anymore and train hard for the Sec 1....

When Angelica comfort me with just 2 words which is cheerup....

I just feel glad but I dunno if she is onli pity me onli for awhile den continue to hate me again....

Yesterday receive the msg of Chao Ya wnat to break with me.......

So, I actuallly feel sth missing inside.......

And notice a great change with all the faces.....

As friendship with the ice creams just end like that......

A friendship thats have been two years.......

Have ended just like that.....

Everyone makes mistakes......

And to forgive and forget the mistake is to see the seriousness of the matter....

And I have made a mistake that make them hate me to the core........

Everyone just treat me like enemy as I have dreamed of..

A war going to start anytime...

Forgiveness is not going to be given....

I can know imagine how they scold me curse me or do anything that they want untill I am left with nth.....

It is truly sad...

Dunno a joke of valentine is able to have lots of things to happen....

Maybelle, I no she is hiding it from bball.....

Maybe I have not really treat my friends with respect.......

There must be alot of htings I dunno....

After Elith msg on Maybelle taqbox....

I think there is going to be alot of misunderstanding?

It is nvr like this in the past.....

Maybelle must have hate me alot........

I have nvr said she is bad.....

i have nvr blame on anyone.......

I am heartless, ungentleman and a boy that know nth about feelings...

A sarcastic boy like me must not be appreciated....

This I think I is currently how they think about me......

I really appreciate the friendship I have with them al the years......

But a break with Chao Ya have cause all this to happen.......

Because of all my faults......

My fault of not caring enough of her.....

My fault of joking sth that is not suppose to be joke.....

My sarcasticness harm myself....

Everything they said deeply leave a memories of it in me.......

I must change for them to accept me again...

i no Maybelle will say action speaks louder than words.....

So I must prove to them with my sincerity ......

But the poblem is how to do it........

And everyone get it right pls....

I am the one who is to be balme for all this to happen....

Not my friends....

Because if I have not done all this.....

This all would not happen.....

So stop misunderstanding them....

It will only make the matter worst.........