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Change is Easy or Hard ?
Sunday, May 17, 2009 6:39 PM
Is changing oneself easy or hard...
Guess only others can see that not yourself....
Finally, I get my fingers to type some words....
It have been 3 months and 17 days since it happen....
No changes at all.....
Now it is time to scold someone and let him feel the pain and selfishness in him....
You have nvr think of others...
But yourself...
You think people don care about you but actually they do...
You just think how pity you are....
In the end you do shameless and coward thing...
Now you are actually escaping from it...
Don you think they are actually tired in trying to ask you to go CO..
Yet here you are HAVEN given
Angelica
an answer...
You are disappointing her throughly....
You have changed alot but not for the better...
You are more sarcastic and self concientious......
You always says things without thinking.....
You know yourself btr than anyone else...
Did you ever try and change....
Do you no they are trying to see the change in you...
Hais....
I now feel utterly useless or a total failure...
I no I am stubborn....
Friends around me haven give up on me....
But I have give up here...
And even try to give up the CCA that I once devoted so much.....
I am still in the past...
Thiking all the thing I have done...
Angelica
had hit the point...
I have been too emotionally involved in it....
But I just cant get out of the darkeness where I will nvr see the light...
This is like a coward who don wan to believe all this is happening to him...
Maybelle
suprise me yesterday...
I thought she is going to ignore me...
But yesterday there she is....
Having a conversation with me...
But I mainly thinks that she don wan her friends to get troubled by me....
Thats why she ask me to stop troubling
Jocelyn
and
Angelica
....
I dunno....
I am really confused....
I probably think too much...
How they think of me?
Maybelle believe I can change for the btr......
I can't face the Ice-Creams....
I am totally hiding from them.....
I have disappointed alot of people...
Currently there is 5 memories that makes me happy.....
2 of it is Jasmine Soo...
1 of it is Aryna...
1 of it is Shi Ni..
And the other is her.....
I have wonder how long must I be like this...
I wan to join all the fun...
But thinking I am a coward ...
I don fit to join them...
Now..I only hope I realise what I really wan to do and change.....
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