These days....
I just don feel good....
Things that I don wish to uncover or How I hope that it wasn't her....
But it was....

Any misunderstanding?
Not sure......
My words is it that no one can understand them?
I feel very horrible deep inside....

I shout out loud.....
in the toilet......
Went back to class and found out that all faces looking at me....
I don care I don feel any bit of better inside me....

Maybe my words been mistaken and they misinterpret it.....
I really want to vent my anger....
But cant...
I punch the bass which is somehow made of wood....
It crack.....

Can't there be anything that sturdy enough and can hurt myself.....
Bleeding will be btr....
Bleed the sorrows out.....
I am wonder why cant she speak to me but do all this behind the computer.....

Why...
I have nvr thought it is her....
Shameless is all the words she say....
The anger can be felt through the words.....
Why?

I totally felt restless.....
I can't move or have energy to talk.....
I just sit there thinking of all the past...

Why cant I cast all this memories and emotion away....
Every part of Vista seems to have the memories...
Every part of Causeway have the feelings and fun that once there.....

Everyone makes mistake.....
Mine is a grave one that's why this is happening.......

CO seems to stick to me....
I can't get rid of it....
I must go and help Yongwen...
He cant cope.......

The selfishness in me ashamed me a lot...
Now I feel anger and sorrow......
I really need to get all this out......

Is the hope now fading.......
Someone please show me the way.......