It is mostly positive stuff....

My mood or feelings is unpredictable...

But mostly my happiness is nvr longer than the sadness i my heart...

There is lot of things I dunno or choose not to know...

But I am aware of my actions which is can terribly piss of my friends...

CelloBass standard 09 definitely is not like the standard of CelloBass 08..

I know it yet I choose to do nothing..

"My Lady" ask us to return for practices today..

So as to buck up..

Which sectional leader won't be scared that the section has fallen because of poor guidance..

But I reply her..'My standard is there, I do not need to go"

Which must have angered Apple...

She called me..

She said"You think you are skillful?"

I said "Ya"

She said"As if!"

I feel angry actually..

I feel insulted......

Even though it is my fault for being rude and sarcastic..

Half of the reason for why I nvr go today to the practice is this...

Another half is my mum angry for sth I have done and don let me go school when I told her there is practice today...

It is getting more complicated as days past...

My friendship that I want to save is totally ruined now...

Yesterday at CO time..

I sit somehow near "My Lady"...

She stand up and walk away..

What is the meaning of these..

Am I being sensitive and think too much..

I cant thing of any postive things too think of...

Inside me, I really want to talk with them like in the past...

Things arent better in the holidays..

I can't stop thinking what people around me are talking about..

Are they talking about me?

Thats my main concern..

Have I suffered from any disease?

Why I just scared of so much things..

I can't find a place where I can be alone and think..

Everywhere I go..

I cant stop thinking what are they doin....

Are they complaining about me?

I cause my friend Megan phone to be confiscate...

I feel so guilty..

I just can't do anyhting right...

I scared I can't control my emotion one day...

And broke out in front of them.....

A big size guy like me....

Can't even do a simple thing right....

I also dunno why I am always misunderstood..

Maybe not always but I still cant get over it..

I read the result of my quiz and horoscope...

It all sound so good..

But if I am so good..

Why I still lose friends....

Why can't I keep friends by my side..

I DON UNDERSTAND EVERYTHING....

How I wished eveything never changes...

I dream about it every night..

The days and the memories.....

You can choose not to believe it...

My dream part of it will always have the memories...

I dunno why or how...

Every emotional song or Romance and Friendship shows...

Trigger the memories and what had happen.....

I wan answer for these.....