Why can't I just stop thinking what will happen.Thinking too much is sure a bad things to do.A small thing that happen cn really made think of all silly stuff.Whenever things have happen and I regret it alot.I will only think that if I havent done this or if i haven done that. If,if,if. Whenever a person look back and say "If", it definitely means they are in trouble. Theres no such thing as "if". The only thing that counts is what really happened, and the truth was that every chance I got, I screwed up.Even when I thought I had done something good, it always turn out bad.

For me, it is always hard pass a message that I wan to convey to someone. I have great difficulty in doin so. Whatever words that I said definitely does not tally with the message I wan to screw up. I will ended up screw up the whole thing I am ytrying to say. Or sometimes I wan to find a chance to explain but never have the courage to do so. Writing a letter to the person seems to be a good choice. I happen to try it and find it easy.

Get a piece of paper and pen down your thought and feelings to the someone including the things you want to say. After finish it, just place it on the table. It seems to be a coward way of doing things but to me at least I able to tell the person what I want to say .

This few days, I does not have the mood to participate in everything. I seems to have alot of things to settle. My results is not sastisfactory either. I really need a timetable to help me manage my time.

There is a girl I want to tell how I feel to her. But I scared I really freak her out. It seems so confusing from the very start. I really don feel that I am really up for anything. I have pessimistic thoughts which will lead me to thinking too much. Changing that habit fo mine is indeed a very hard thing to be done.

How organised can I be. I really hope I can know what people are doin. So I won be disturbing them. It is always seems to be a wrong timing for me. Whenever I wan to caht or maybe just want some help, everyone seems to be busy and ended being told by them to not to disturb them. How I wish I can know when a person is pissed off so that I won be making them feel more irritated.

Wished things will really be better for the next few days that is going to come.....