Looking aback, thinking how things can really turn out if have not done that decision....

Watching 17 again, seems to have the urge that my wish for the past to be back is even greater...

But for me the title of it will not be the age...

It will be titled January again...

Wondering for a long time,

What I have been doing all these years....

What I really want all these years...

Have I really succeeded what I want?

I am trying to impress everybody...

Trying to get attention....

But it seems the wrong way.....

In the end, I get scolded for being irritating or shameless....

It is almost like Flik, an ant in Bugs Story...

He is trying to impress everyone with his inventions especially Princess Atta....

In the end, he really succeeded in impressing them when he found a way to get rid of the cockroaches..

But the ending of Flik and me is never the same...

I have always keep on thinking,

Why they are able to do that while I cant...

It take me long enough to realize that I am a failure for everything....

I cant be as popular as Juztin or as smart as YingYing.....

Another story from Lilo and Stitch...

Lilo have always been regarded by her friends as a crazy person because of her weird ways..

Lilo seems want a person to understand her...

To be cared and loved as she said she has a broken family....

Lilo have a wish...

She said quietly at the day she went away from school...

"I need someone to be my friend, someone who won't run away"

"Maybe send me an angel...the nicest angel you have"...

All these stories, I have read..

There's a deep storyline behind it....

Maybe I have what Lilo wished for...

Just that I never appreciate it and let it go....

Retribution comes without a word..

You will never know when it will really go away....

I really do wished for a day...

Where my wishes will come true even for a single day.....