Have quite a number of remedials and stuff....

Broke a Double Bass and crack a Cello.....

It seems it isn't a week for me to rest at all.....

Lots of things happen...

Or should I say things that I caused it to happen..

I really dunno what should I do....

Appear like a boy inside seems to be like a girl....

So easily hurt emotionally just by sth said by someone....

Now I am still keeping up my revision...

Hope would not drop to 4N3 but stick to 4e2....

Everynow or then when I want to start my work....

There will be problems surfacing...

Does anyone believes in retribution......

Angelica believe abit of it......

So does really what we have done in the past cause us to be in the state we are in now?

I am not sure.....

I may think I am a good boy in the past...

But think again I don't think so now...

I really can't find a person to share or have advice on my troubles ....

I thought I found but in the end the reply is either a OH or a SO ?

Maybe they will say, what you expect me to reply or stuff....

But I dunno, I just want to hear comforting words or advice.....

Does she think I am a Attention Seeker by standing on the podium and say

:School stand at ease, Our National Athem..
My friend Choon Hup, mention it on the bus and those who knows laugh...

I just find it embarassed and ask him to stop...

Then she heard it and say loudly : Very funny meh, So funny meh?

I really dunno whether should I be angry or sad....

Hais..

Rejected once again which seems common for guys....

But I just find it hard to accept.....

I want to sms her badly now and say or ask questions.....

But I do not want to irritate her further......

But after this incident.....

My minds cant concentrate at all....

I am mad that night and write all sort of poems and finding emotional songs...

I am not reallt that strong when I am alone...

Not so strong afterall.....

It is not the end of the world yet...

So I still have to move on...

But am I really prepared with what lies ahead of me......

Will life be better or worse for a bad luck guy like me.....

U dislike emo guys, I know....

U rest assured that I am not emo when I am outside....

I won't be emo at all.....

I just keep those felings and emotions in me till I am infront of the computer...

Then I pour it all out in words.....

It just feels a little better but not totally better.....

It hurt deeply inside

When you dump me aside

Dying to know why

Even when I have already lose thy

I really do not want to cry

When you told me the reason why

I feel totally dejected

When I am already being rejected

Loving and caring you

Even when you have the slightest flu

Give me a chance to try

Before my tears have gone dry

Roses are red

Violets are blue

There is no way

I would not be thinking about you