Haven even manage all these study stuff and find a tuition teacher for maths..

Thinking a back of my results in the past is definitely better than the results I am currently holding on to...

I wouldn't know if I would be able to improve in my academics if I continue the way I am in sec 3..

Till now, I am still not sure by the meaning of moving on....

I don understand at all...

There is stuff that I have done which seems extremely childish..

I have never been so immature before...

I ended a friendship of mine..

Thinking that it would be better and test will she feel the way like how other friends leave her...

It is extremely stupid and immature action definitely....

Hais why am I lyke this....

The things in the past lyke what others said is like a learning memory...

Where we learn our mistakes and stuff and try to prevent it from happening again...

The joy that I see in everyone faces makes me feel confused and happy...

It always have the effect on me...

I am always oblivious and blur to what I have done...

People is mad at me and I do not know the cause of it...

Every time I want to achieve in something but it is never successful...

I do not really want this to be happening forever....

Every time whenever I walk past see people murmuring to each other...

I wondering are they talking something bad abt me...

The actions of my friends are able to make people laugh...

But the actions of mine is always find it disgusted and laugh as a stupid joke....

Sometimes courage do play a big part in our lives...

If there is no courage,you wouldn't dare to try and discover new things in life..

Wondering why the same words is being said by my friends can make people laugh..

But when I said the words, people will be giving me a sullen look..

I am always glad to offer help...

But know one will find me as they think I am not up to it or clumsy....

Or maybe I do not have the courage to approach the person to offer my help...

Thats why no one find me...

I am always dreaming about the future of what will actually happen to me...

I have never been given the respect maybe ppl think I don't deserve any respect...

I even get scolded by ppl who is younger than me.....

Or been given names based on my actions like ah kua?

Being a son, student and a senior have never been an area where I am successful...

Every where I go is being look down upon...

Hais...

Looking at the knowledge that my friends acquire makes me a nobody..

Every thing I learn is from them...

Every thing that I thought I am the first one to know will ended up learning that I am outdated...

I am now very sensitive to every words that my friends said..

I am so sensitive that whatever they say I will keep them in my heart...

And take it for real...

So ended up being a hot tempered and irritable person...

It no good at all...

Secrets are not meant to be told at all...

But now I wonder does secret will forever end up a secret...

Every secret that I know now ended up being known by everyone....

And ended up sometimes being blamed for these secret being known when I told no one abt it...

Hais I am bound to be blame and scolded forever?

AM I really a useless and a failure person?

Can I do something that make everyone happy and satisfied?

No one will really bother about me after all I am just a person can't be bothered.....