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Does the pain weigh out the pride? ♥
Has it end or This is just the starting...
Friday, December 25, 2009 8:19 PM
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A year is going to end just like that.....
I used to like memories alot bt now I don want to be in the past anymore....
It seems to hurt me greatly now as thinking of what had happen but now it is not happening....
Gotto forget about her and the rest....
Why isn't there a book for someone who think too much...
Am I still a friend to them or I am just not piece of thrash that talk nonsense....
Have I really grown up or I am just childish as ever....
Now I don dare to face up to what I have done to them.....
Yesterday, bad news arrived.......
There isn't a chance for me in her heart.....
Finally giving up now......
Now memories to me is such a stupid crap....
It is sth that make me wek day by day and ask for it to be back...
Feelings and emotions is seriously sth that make me weak to the core....
I put too much emotion into sth and in the end what I get is a total disappointment...
Getting jealous and petty easily.........
I should not have gone socializing with ppl.....
Being alone like what I am n sec 1 is the best choice to have....
Everywhere I go, I am just disappointed as I do not get the same treatment as others...
As usual during grad night that day I screw up totally...
I wet the whole page of dedications what the fucking hell I have done.....
In exchange for treating cello bass drinks and sweets...
A failure won't get anything done....
This make myself more detestable...
Being look down upon....
A burden than everyone would not try to handle with...
A guy who is nth but a crap....
My goal for now is study..
Maybe if my mentality is not wrong....
And to get a closest friend as soon as possible....
A friend will be enough for a guy like me...
THE MORE FRIENDS THERE ARE, THE WEAKER I WILL BE....
I must learn to be cold and harsh that for sure....
I doubt I really have any success in that....
Being someone who I am not really are it is difficult.....
Now I am totally confused....
Do I have them as friends?
Normal friends?
Or I don not have friends to start with at all.....
Now I am starting with all these friend crap again.........
I swear to change myself....
I swear......
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