Many things have happen within a month....

Broken down at least twice every week....

Really dunno wad is going to happen for the rest of my life...

Life is filled with difficult moments,

And few hit me more personally and intimately than when I struggle with a severe illness or traumatic injury...

Fear, doubt, anxiety, and despair strike at out heart. Coupled with the physical pain, the times when life hurts can be overwhelming .

Comfort seems unattainable, and hope's beyond reach...

Lost 2 friends...

This is really fast as it is just the beginning of the year....

I do not really no the reasons as no one tell me.....

But certainly the problem lies in me....

I saw a baby in the bus a few days ago....

She is just so cute and innocent....

When she cries or fall,there is someone to hold her and comfort her...

How sweet and nice can it be to know someone is there for you....

There is someone who say she will be there for me....

We are supposed to be good friends as now I am not sure.....

She feel sad few weeks ago....

I try comfort her but no success.....

Den she seems to be much better...

After that she don talk to me ler.....

She message me that let her think first and she will talk to me soon...

I can't help but feel hurt....

I am a lousy friend after all it seems as I need to be reconsider as a friend....

Totally a failure.....

Beyond hope for me it seems....

Drowning myself into songs everyday and cry along with it....

People see me with sec 1, they take it as I am flirting with them....

I dunno wad to tell them either....

But just nod my head along with it....

I am desperate for a friend who can understand me....

If I have friends that understand me, will I go to sec 1 and look for one....

They dunno me well so maybe it is easier for me to communicate with them and make new friends...

Isit wrong to do so too?

I am now really in a desperate state now.....

Ms Tan Cai Ling spoke to me .....

I just can't stop crying in front of her and feel weak....

She ask me to give her 3 good point of me....

If I have 3 good points, people would not despise me or dislike me....

They would not look down on me even...

Each time I see Mr Cheng, I feel pressurize...

Seeing him like seeing two words :Failure and useless......

I cant really cope with my feelings...

Each time I feel sad or down I will just break down without any signal...

Especially when it concerns with friends......

Barely become a good friend of hers now I lose her as a friend....

Hais feeling totally confused and moody everyday.....

Now being forbid to say hi to her sister too.....

I really don understand why must she tell her sister about the thing....

Now I can't even dream about making friends with any of the sec 1 as it will sooner or later, all the sec 1 will no......

No hope and no future...

Life is just so moody for me....

Denson have just prove I am a total failure......

Cant thanks him more than that........

Wandering about in my world...

Trying to find a hand that stretch out to help me see the light and make me optimistic once more....

Back to the 3 good points Ms Tan want me to give her..

I still can't find any....

I ask my mother, she says she sees none in me....

I ask my grandpa...

My grandpa said sarcastically that I am a fast eater....

You can't imagine how hurt I am...

How hurt can I be....