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Sunday, January 3, 2010 6:18 PM
School terms starts tmr....
Will be seeing new faces and old ones too...
Some may change while some may not...
They can change in appearances, feelings and lots more....
Everyday I am thinking about how will I be treated when school terms starts...
Will I be treated as the same like the year in 2009?
Will it be like what the priest said that I will have more enemies next year?
I dunno....
Feelings and emotions is really one that makes a person scary and weak...
When you are angry and full of hatred, you are fearless against everything you do...
When you are sad and full of guilt, you may cowered up in a corner and cry...
These "things" sure not really as wonderful s it seems....
Pictures and songs have brought back many painful memories in my head...
Staring it or hearing it makes my tears roll down my cheeks...
The smile in the pictures are gone....
The song that makes me remember them has now left me ......
Watching manga "Naruto" makes me feel like in a fantasy...
I love it not because of its action packs...
It is because that Naruto mentality makes me feel sad and happy...
His wants to be recognize....
He do all stuff to get that recognition and he never gives up....
He believes in everything that he do and make people feel good when he is around them...
He is able to change people with his words and thoughts that no one can...
In the end, he succeeded....
Attitude and the mentality of mind is important...
What you think is what you are.....
Having too much distorted thoughts does not seems to make me any better...
Instead people hate me for it....
Every time watching any drama series that relates to friends or love....
It always makes me cry.....
It is touching but it is painful enough to know I won ever reach that level...
In the past watching all these, I keep on hoping that these will happen to me someday..
Where I help and save people or other stuff that makes people recognize of my good deeds..
But now I know this dream is a fantasy as it will never come true for me...
I am infamous to be exact...
Sec 2 when I always walk into other people class...
Everybody seems to know who I am...
I was like very happy and thought everybody must have know me because I have done sth good...
But when Danial said once when we are having a conversation about how they knew each other...
My heart tear apart...
He said " Oh, ya I only get to know Kenny when he sec 1 because of the case....."
I brings me to reality that people know me not because sth good I have done...
But something bad....
Hais, I am not totally blank. curious and worried when school term starts tmr...
Like what I said will it change or it will still be the same....
Will Kenny Yee Tan be accepted and recognize for sth else but not that case.....
Not that case....
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