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Chua Xin En (03.03.94)

Results are out....

So far there is some improvement but not much....

I failed my A- maths and English but pass the rest...

Hais so much unexpected things have happened....

I really do not know where I offend you....

I nvr complain anything as I don find a need to....

Maybe you are trying to justify your sister thats why you did this?

Den all I can say to you is you have did a very good job?

Currently addicted to a few emotional songs.....

Amalina say I am too observant while Xin En says I am not...

So which category I am actually in.....

It is really puzzling me...

Day by day seeing her walk here and there....

Can't muster up enough courage to talk to her and just envy to those who are able to talk to her...

Sometimes understanding too much is bad or try to care is bad...

As it makes me hard to approach the person...

Why can't I have any matured thoughts.....

Why must I care fro something that is not even my problem in the first place....

Why must I try to improve the situation and try to make her happy again....

It just end up to be another failure that I cant accept.....

The day is getting nearer....

Will my life turn around?

Will I be forgiven?

It is seriously making me mad....

How am I suppose to keep a friendship?

How am I suppose to tell a person that I detest him alot?

I still figuring out wad to change...

Trying to focus on studies and have quality grades...

To get into the course I want and to answer all my question at one go.....

Why am I always afraid of this and that....

And envy of everything?

Revenge and hatred will never end as far as I know...

People hurt you and you hate them for it....

Your friends also pity you and join in and help you revenge....

Revenge goes on and the other party is hurt and the friends of the person wants to help him/ her to win back the dignity or wadeva that is lost....

So when will the hatred and revenge end when each action is to be justified....

Why cant people resolve matters by having a simple talk and come to terms that both party agree on ?

Hais....

This world won't be a beautiful world to live in if hatred is spread instead of happiness....