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Fear for the future......
Friday, March 26, 2010 11:13 PM
I love you
You hate me
What a common feeling that should be
Given a big tide slap from you to me
Tears drop down seeing you leave me....
( Using Barney rhythm)
-
Kenny
I am really very confused ...
I do not understand myself at all....
When I shy, I actually behave more aggressive....
I was like thinking why should I behave that way...
There is so much thing I have yet to learn...
Hais...
My hand is also one thing that I detest the most...
Everything that is in my hand will be spoiled..
The gift that is given to me from Xin En has broken...
Hais, now I trying to repair it...
I am afraid for the subsequent present that is going to give me will spoil also...
But I guess there won be any more belated present as there just won be any..
I have been hurt by my false hope of hoping there will be a particular present given by my friends..
But I do not think they will be giving me...
I am still trying hard to let this matter go but I just cant...
Seeing
Denson
wallet always trigger the feeling back ....
In school, I am like trying to avoid alot of people....
I do not really no why...
But there is something that I know for sure...
Whenever I see the people, I will feel terribly sad and ashamed...
Now I dunno why my mind is full of death...
Even though I keep on thinking of it, I would not dare to carry it out.....
So I just like look forward to the day I am going to day...
I really wish to see from heaven or hell , will the people be happy.....
If they do..I feel worth it den...
I know it sound totally stupid...
But me everyday I hide in fear makes me feel like a total trash...
I dunno how to be a normal..
I find myself very detestable too...
I afraid I am going to be like my dad...
My dad temper and attitude...
Is detest by my family members...
I do not wish to be like him at all...
There is one point I detest the most...
Yet that is wad always people do it to me.....
I talk to someone and there would be a reply or an ans or just complete ignore me...
I just find it hard to accept and irritating...
I can't do anything about it though....
Sometimes I am pondering have I really respected my friends...
Is that why no one respect me and don take me seriously?
Maybe its time to really think about it...
I am irritated by someone who looks down on themselves or a pessimistic sort of people..
Yet here I am typing all such stupid emotional stuff.
I am really a weird guy...
Rereading Twilight..
It makes me wants to acquire
Jasper
and
Edward
extraordinary senses....
It will be the ideal person...
But it just a dream I can only dream of...
Sometime people feelings are rather easily to be predicted...
Each time ppl pour their trouble to me...
I guess their feelings and it most spot on...
But in the end, I get labeled as a weirdo...
Sometimes I envy
Shahrul Andean
....
He seems to be able to control my class better than the chairman...
Maybe he is greatly respected...
Thats why he can get the attention of our class so easily...
I admire a person ever since I know her problems...
Amalina...
She will like go OMG , why me?! if she read my post which she probably won?
I wonder when I can express my feeling as clear as she did at her journal..
The phrases and some short post and stories...
Make me want to learn from her more...
Hais...
My words and action...
Will always cause some misunderstanding.....
Sometimes I am wondering...
Should a person go all the way to find a truth or just leave it be and pretend it have never happen?
People say truth hurts....
But does all truth hurts?
I want attention but I aint getting any...
I am still trying to learn what
Xin En
have told me...
In order to prevent some misunderstanding between a guy and a gal...
There must be a space when we are walking together....
Trying hard to sort out a schedule for my studies now...
Everyday is a trouble day for me..
Trying hard everyday from getting into trouble
And hope my actions will be recognized and be well liked by friends...
I hope...
-
Kenny
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