Been reading this book for abt more than 5 times.....

This is the only book I have currently...

I like the way how Bella express herself..

Her thought, her feelings and stuff makes me want to no more....

Sorry Denson...

I find it very hard to explain why I like to reread this book all over again...

So I give you all rubbish kind of reason...

I dunno..

Reading this books kind of give me some understanding....

Of some stuff....

There is times where I wonder why am I avoiding and can't face the fact...

I am not the only one "suffering"..There is others too..due to different reasons..

Hais...

Until now I still wonder do Twilight story exist.....

Not really in the vampire way...

As in is there really a guy who can read people thoughts...

If only I can do that..

I won be able to worry everyday, thinking of what people think of me...

Childishness is really making me piss off every minute...

I mean myself not other people....

I still cant get over Angel it seems and the presents....

Seeing Denson wallet makes me full of jealousy again...

I wonder when will I learn to let go...

I rely on Angel too much now cause me in this crazy stage...

It seems that promises are meant to be broken...

Am I a fool who always giving false hope to myself?

I dunno...

Should I takes my friends word seriously or not...

Or at times I am afraid I get the wrong meaning of what they are saying hence having me holding on to a false hope...

I cant understand anyone feelings at all.....

Thinking of how Edward tries to save or help Bella makes me feel useless...

I have never ever been helpful....

I only cause trouble whenever I want to help...

I know I sound abit gay...

I mean which guy will write in such way or look down on themselves this much...

I hate my mouth...

It just cant stop talking...

Who am I?

Why am I being born?

To give suffering and hurt myself with my own actions?

Seeing the retributions that is coming one by one?

So what I am big size...

I am just a F.U.E.L guy.....

I want to please everybody...

But in the end I please nobody and cause myself to be hurt by my own actions....

I end it with a poem...

I gazed out on life's darkened sky,

One bright and shining star to spy,

That star was you-a-ray of light,

To guide me through the darkest night.

Your love it shines, your love it glows,

My heart it yearns, my heart it knows,

I wished for you, my DREAM star,

Wished for your love from afar.