Before I start to type my boring and nonsensical feelings.. I will comment on the two tags one the left hand corner... I send a message to them and confirmed that it wasn't them who type it... I dunno who like to use their name.. I will be lying if I say I am not affected by it... But so what if I am affected... It is common to see this stuff in my world... I just have to accept it...
Every life is a story.. Every story there is a something that we can learnt from... And the thing that we can learnt from is actually the ending of the story...
Each of our actions will bring about something that we might expect or something that is not being expected at all... This week is no different from last week... Just another desperate guy finding accompaniment...
It is really an irony for me that despite the 111 contacts in my phone... I can't find a person out and accompany me... Everyday just wander around aimlessly...
Had a parents meeting session with Mdm Sung.. Did change my way of looking at things but not all... I thought after the talk, the relationship my mum and I had will improved abit or by a great scale... But in the end, the re isn't and we are still the same..
I am really confused and lonely... Farah said my blog is always so dead and boring... But this is the place that I can type how I truly feel.. Unless I have found someone who will be there with me and listen to me... Then I would not need this blog anymore...
I want happiness and I tried to stay happy.. I do... But I can't make my happiness last long... Sometimes I shout at my 3 year old sister... But what she say hurts me despite the age she had..
Her words and the words that my friends said before leaving me is exactly the same... I had a hard time to manage my matters much alone taking out some time to manage my time... Mdm Sung asked me to untie the knot in my heart...
Family is important.. Friends come second..... When you are outside, you do not have your family around you... Thats where you need friends....
But for me... I do not want to mention it much... Next Monday, my first O LvL paper.. Hope I can get the results I want...
After my papers in the morning and afternoon, I will be meeting Mrs Goh for my counselling session... To me I only have acquaintances... I never have made any friends....
If I am sad, and there is someone who is happy about it out there... I don mind being sad as I have my blog to confide in... But if my blog is being taken away from me (as if it can be taken), then I really will burst into madness someday...
Come to the most sensitive part.... Mdm Sung said she heard that I hang out with Sec 1 alot... I forget what she said after that...
But at the point of time she mentioning that.. I feel like telling her something... This is what I want to tell her...
If I have a choice do you think I want to hang out with them? I am desperate thats why I hang out with them.. I hardly can find someone in Sec 4 whom I am quite comfortable and and click off with.. And there is not a single Sec 4 who likes my presence I think...
I actually miss Mt intensive... Believe it or not... I everyday attend lesson and do not have much time to think abt other stuff.. When I return back to my class on Thursday, the feelings are back again.. Seeing their faces and the memories will be back to haunt me again...
During Mt intensive, I really enjoyed myself... Because I make my class laugh and they make me happy too... I will miss the jokes and all from the Sec 5.... Thats all for today I think... Feeling ABIT better but there is still something that bothers me...