Will I ever be needed by someone at any time of the day?
Friday, May 14, 2010 11:04 PM
Things happen at anytime and anywhere... It can be now later or tomorrow..... This week I have really have too much pain inside myself and I can't let it go.. Tears just keep falling and this time there is no rain to cover it up for me...
How I hope all of these is a dream... It is just a dreadful nightmare and when I wake up, it will be all gone.. Everyday I wished upon the stars that I will be happy but not miserable... Family and friends will I ever feel their concern for me?
I maybe a guy.. But I still want to be a cared for and have someone to show their concern.. When I am down, I hope I can have a friend beside me... Some of them said that they care but I dunno...
Maybe I am too obsessed in myself to feel it..
Love is a powerful weapon... It can cause great hurt in a person as well as makes the person feel good.. Why love can hurt a person? It is because of rejection...You love the person but the person have no feeling for u... So in the end , it is the love you have for someone hurt you...
My heart have broken into pieces how many times this week.... I am still being looked down upon by my peers and friends... And I thought she is back as my friend and we can chat again but it seems not as there is no more reply from her after a day of conversation through phone with her.. I have offended Angelica, i think.. It is weird. I want to hurt her or make her frustrated at me. Yet this time when she is, I don feel happy like I used to in the past...
What the hell is going on with me? My feelings and thoughts have all been confused and jumbled up... Who am I? Why am I here?
Ms Tan said teachers in my school read my blog!? I dunno if I should believe that or not... If they did, then I am worried of how they think of me when they see me in school.. This MYE I did badly, will the teachers look down on me like what my classmates have done?
Life is indeed unfair... I can't hate neither I can love... I cant choose.. I feel left out...
I now writing 3 letters for 3 different persons... Hais...