I am certainly not helping myself.... Not helping at all... Nowadays people wouldn't care about people who think low of themselves... So I am certainly not helping myself at all...
If this goes on, I am 100% sure that I will find it very hard in making new acquaintances in poly... What should I do? I am really feel disturbed by the fact that I am an irritating guy to the people around me... And a sarcastic one too...
But when I am being sarcastic, I am actually joking... I know it sounds confsing but thats really what I mean... I know what you all think.. I may think that I am joking but other people do not think the same as me.. Hence tey are offended by me though they might be smiling while I am saying it...
Sometimes trying hard to make people laugh and happy is not a wise choice for me after al... As they always end up irritated and angry...
I don't have a sense of humour after all... The humour that I THOUGHT I am having is actually sarcasm... How bad can that be... Very bad I guess....
The world out there don't do spoon feeding anymore... WE got to interact around our own and make friends... Its easy for others ( like Denson) but definitely not easy for me.... Definitely not easy for me when I have all this negative aura around me and fear of this and that... Definitely no....
How can I change to a better person? Seriously I find that it is an irony when I am not so comunicative yet the student council teachers place me as a student councillor in the communications department...
I was reading about a comment that chuquan make in facebook.. I agree to what she said.... Denson definitely is sociable and can make friends easily by a click of your fingers... I can't stop envy him since sec 1....
When I received a bad comment from someon, I will tend to avoid the person... If I am already that bad in the person mind, I dun want to add anymore bad things in his or her list when they see me... It is a coward act.. I know...
I dun want to be a irritating person to anyone ANYMORE ! What can I do to change? I miss all of friends so much..... So much.....