A lot of things have happen and I am not sure whether have I change to a whole new person or still the same old me. One Semester have passed since I last blog. Currently in Temasek Polytechnic studying Environment Design. My G.P.A isn't that good either.
I have finally get over Amalina. The girl that has the sweetest smile. Hope still to be able to contact her and stay as friends. Didn't have much negative thoughts on myself now as I have tried to improve myself and try doing so. I am still as emotional as I used to be.
Getting into Poly have indeed makes me learn alot of things. Negative person are really not welcome into the POLY world.Indeed like what Angela had said. I manage to convince myself I have friends. I managed to accept the fact that i am not a good person and working to tune myself to a better.
A lot of conflict feeling while I am in POLY though. Like falling in love with the wrong girl. Sometimes, if you notice, people actually over react to certain situations when they can just faced it normally. I wrote my first letter to her.
Pathetically enough, there is totally no response from her.... So it lead to an air of awkwardness between me and her... Just like Amalina and I during those days.. Though it is a total different reason.
Scarlet encourages me to forget. I agree to her thoughts but it is harder to do it as I am so tired in avoiding her everyday.. Very tired. All the bickering with her has stop. We didn't even look into each other eyes anymore too...
Growing up is a long way ahead, And each path you take, you have to make wise and right choice and must control your feelings well. My maturity is not there yet and still have much more things to learn. I wish i have more preaching from Chen Wei so as to learn more of my UGLY me...
Really tired of the love life for some reason.. Have everything planned out. Just waiting for the right person to attend it. You get what I mean?? And understand how frustrating the feelings is? I learn that life is all about patience sometimes. You can't rush things too hard and too fast. You won't be gaining anything from it.