Conflicting Feelings That SHould Never Be There...
Thursday, November 10, 2011 12:46 PM
If your mind is a s steady as it is, you wouldn't have problem managing your own feelings. Thats what my friend told me a few days ago. I dunno why... It always that when I blast my laptop songs into my ear... The songs that makes me realise who I really am. The coward guy underneath all the skins.
Its not that I don't like myself now. Just that I hate myself over reacting to anything and getting hyper. Its just so not me I guess. All the acting is so tiring. Inside me have full of resentment and stuff.
Why can't I see girls as friends? Its just so unfair of me to treat different girls differently because of their appearance and stuff..
Have an argument with Sean. Though I didnt know typing his girlfriend name jokingly will get scolded from him. Apologize to him seems to be not enough. I wonder what should I do so he can calm down...
Tmr is 11.11.11. The specials day of the year. I got no plans on what to do on that day. Other than going gym with my beloved cousin Aven :) Den I go post on Facebook that if I have 50 likes, I will confess to the girl i like tmr at 11.11 pm. Currently have 27 likes. But in mind I dunno who I should go confessed my love to. I got no one special in mind as I am trying to forget Rachelle altogether,
Sometimes, feelings really makes me crazy. I cant manage it well and very indecisive at times. This whole thing is really CRAZY.
Many decisions to made. Have to work hard in everything. Little time spend in playing. Is that really life?
Have to work on my size. the only thing that can boost my self esteem is that now. Each time I watch Step Up, they always motivate me to have a nice body. Must really control my diet it seems. Hmmm got to earn some tips from my cousin Aven!! :D